Sunday 26 January 2014

Stray thoughts of a dying soldier (loved and lost)


Hate can be something that finishes the meagre meaning of our evolving existence. Every day, we see rapes, murders, destruction and we feel anguished by these ‘negative’ consequences, but have we ever understood the relevance of this feeling to be a part of us. Maybe within the dualities of our everyday experiences, hate tends to play an equal part as much as love does but do we ever understand the significance of falling in love, that immaculate radiance, the sunshine that engulfs all of its brightness within, leaving one with a feeling of serenity. Can that feeling be felt forever, the ecstasy of a reverberation of a higher realm? Can the memory of that feeling be sustained even when we are dissolved within the threat of destroying ourselves or our external image?

There comes a time in everyone’s life when they find love, a love so strong that seeks to overpower fear and diminish the illusion of death. The mind seems to strive to activate anything and everything that it seeks to accomplish with a heart which is full and happiness looking down through the canopy of our existence. At the same time, paralleling the same exists another realm that quite literally divides what has been said before. Through the bosom of the dark, daring clouds comes a feeling of eternal loss, a loss whose magnitude can only be measured by a clench in the heart that refuses to see the light of day. Why can we not see the sunshine then when all seems numb, when nature in itself stops and replicates vacuum? 

When you see deep within the eyes of your paramour, you wish to hold onto that moment as if that was the true meaning of one’s existence. When your hands fit in your counterparts’ as if the completion takes place of what you seek to get up for from bed every day, seems to be fulfilled. When you smell the raw scent of the hair that tantalizes the core of your existence, as you feel it surge through like the flow of a river that just runs its course. When a glowing smile sends you flying across witnessing the twilight of an everlasting sky that meets the ocean. When a laugh radiates a sound that can cure pain, pain that seems to surge through the core of a fracture. An image of love, a sign of truth, a reassurance of home, a sense of strength…. Reality.

When all logic seems to fall apart and all there finally emerges is the truth of nothingness, which is contentment of having everything held sacred that has been preached about through the music of the waves, chirps of a bird, raindrops, the roar of the thunder and an undying enigma that quietly creeps in the form of a belief for the supernatural. A call…


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